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    Sunday, October 10th, 2004
    4:20 pm
    Insanity.
    I don't, well, I don't consider myself insane. Socially awkward? Yes. Troubled? Yes.

    Also, I like to keep my online identities distinct, thank you very much. Not that there's a chance in hell that they'd keep that way.

    You know what? Fuck this. I'm getting a friends only LiveJournal.
    Saturday, September 18th, 2004
    5:02 pm
    Seriously.
    I stepped into an unknown uncharted part of my mind. It was strangely, but dangerously refreshing. I couldn't get out until it was too late.

    Now I found an achilles heal, so to speak, that would most definately work against me. However, I intend to work around the problem rather than attacking it directly.

    I should definately not have made the decisions I made.
    Monday, May 31st, 2004
    2:02 am
    Ahem.
    *Logs onto the computer to type on the internet in this Live Journal.*

    I realize now that we all need to take a break. We need to spend time with our families. I am not joking. I am not going to speak too soon. I have not yet spent time with my family but I am planning on doing so.

    I suggest everybody do the same. Take some time off the internet as I am. It will honestly do you some good. We can spend a day or two, or we can spend a week, or even a month. A fine balance is honestly the best balance.

    We must spend time with our families to remember our roots, our upbringings.

    *Takes a breath, and releases it.* We will not forget completely about what happened, but we will be in a position to rethink our situations.

    I am not planning on taking back any posts, but what I will do is remind people that at this point, I am fine and well. I want to thank the people who made this possible and I believe we should continue living our lives as we normally would, even though sometimes there are abnormalities in it.

    You do not have to worry about everything things I say. Worry sometimes but not always. I do not have to worry either.

    *Stretches a bit, still a bit tense from all of this.* I will do my best to spend time with my family at least, my real family.

    Current Mood: anxious but okay
    Sunday, May 30th, 2004
    2:20 am
    I am calm but alert.
    Please, put Palshife down, please do not make any false moves, please, I will listen to you, I will listen to what you have to say about Palshife and try to listen to all of you... I will listen to your demands, whatever demands are being made at the moment. Please, do not hurt Palshife (or if you have to somewhat don't do permanent damage but be nice they are a real person), do not kill Palshife, do not make Palshife into something so extremely twisted as to be unbelievable...

    I am willing to listen to you. I want a compromise. I want a reasonable solution that works out for all parties involved, even if this necessarily entails a fair or high degree of uncertainty as to Palshife's future, even if this means you know something that I do not, just please, do not do anything to hurt him, or her, or whoever Palshife is...

    If you have other people, do not hurt them either. I am honestly willing to cooperate... over whatever span of time is necessary to make out a reasonable resolution... I will speak softly and I will not try to barge in and invade, however, please give me at least some evidence that Palshife is still okay first before I make any further decisions.

    I am in a very tight bind at the moment. Whatever or whoever Palshife is, please, I am asking you nicely, be more careful with them. Palshife is capable of dying and getting hurt just like the rest of us, after all, reguardless of form. So is everybody else so if there are others who are also involved please be careful with them too.

    (PS, I am looking for music to represent my current attitude or the situation ATM. It takes guts to be angry, but it takes even more to remain calm after all that has happened.

    PPS I found a music that is on my own desktop it is not the same as the one in the movie but it will have to do.)

    The suspence is building, I can sense it. I do not know how long this will take but it will probably take a long time. I may not be a professional at this and I may not be completely in on your game but I am curious. Is there any number I can call? I do not know precicely what is going on, and if knowing will hurt Palshife or others then I do not need to know, but I want to know how I can keep from harming them. I am sorry for buying into a lot of the lies that have been going on, I honestly am... and I will do what I can to help fix things...

    I am still calm but somewhat anxious. I do not want to see anybody actually hurt. It saddens me to have to cave in somewhat when all I wanted was peace, but it does not appear that everybody else wants this.

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    Time passes, but not that much. I am wondering if I should sleep on this, if that would make it all better. I am just learning how to do this... I hear what I believe are spankings and they are not that hard and in fact they are not mean but I am honestly afraid of anything bad happening, I want to know what it is you want what it is I can do to keep Palshife from being hurt... really, I do. I am willing to sleep on this... please do not do anything rash. I am here to help.

    I think I heard earlier a car dropping off, I am not sure what that had indicated, maybe Palshife was in there maybe they were not...

    My head remains calm. I am alright at the moment. Is everybody else? I will in fact go to sleep, but please, be patient with me the way I am being patient or trying to right now.

    I hear a door knob... it is somebody alright but I do not know who or if it is Palshife or if it is not.

    I am willing to sleep on it. *Turns off the lights.*

    Current Mood: calm
    Saturday, May 29th, 2004
    4:45 am
    Okay.
    I got a ticket today. What the fuck? I was taking driving lessons...

    Here's the situation. I was driving with my buddy and there happened to be a very reflective... well, mirrorish thing. I couldn't look directly at it because when I tried to I nearly blinded myself and crashed. Well I was driving fine anyways.

    The problem is that when I drove again, I realized that I should look away. So I looked away, but for some reason the car seemed to steer itself when I did that, and the driving instructor wasn't paying much attention either. So I crashed into that little metal thingy. I don't know what they're called... what do you call them? Oh fuck it, that doesn't matter.

    The problem is my driving instructor isn't taking ANY responsibility for the crash either. He could've taken the steering wheel and kept me from crashing, but when I talked to him about it, he said he wanted me to learn to drive on my own. How is letting me crash teaching me to drive on my own? Seriously. Especially when the very thing I was trying not to crash into was the very thing I wasn't even looking at, because I was TOLD not to. The driving instructor even refused to talk to me before I got into the car.

    This angers me, but not that much. I'm okay. However the driving instructor is pissed. I think I might just flunk driver's ed, AGAIN.

    Current Mood: disappointed
    Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
    12:39 am
    Oh dear.
    I have a message for you all. I received this in my in-box the other day. The person who sent it to me has asked me to keep their identity anonymous, and I wholeheartedly agree with this. I am revealing this to the public, because I believe it interests the rest of you.

    "Dear Mr./Ms. Zero Yellow Yoshi,

    How have you been? It's been over five years since I last saw you. I didn't realize you still existed! I know you don't know me that well, but that's okay, because I don't know you that well either. However, there is something we have to talk about. A certain someone, who shall remain nameless, has been infiltrating my life, learning and exposing secrets about me, and giving me no ability to retaliate. They have done an endless number of things wrong to me, ON PURPOSE and with the sole intent of making my life miserable. Not only that, but they are pretending they are not, TO ME. That is an insult. I demand restitution. Can you help?"

    The thing is, I don't really like this person. They've ignored me for what? Five years? Actually, this is a good thing. I really want nothing to do with them. However, then I got THIS piece of mail:

    "Dear Yellow Yoshi,

    I have news for you. This person has, without any authorization whatsoever, been taking elements of your identity and using it against you. You have no idea who this person is, do you? I think it may be somebody from your past. Someone who knows you very well."

    Now this one gets me curious. It sounds like the paranoid rantings of a lunatic to me, but on the other hand, it may just be a concerned citizen. I doubt any of this is true, but I will be on my guard, nonetheless.

    I just hope I don't regret this.

    Current Mood: anxious
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